Have you ever had one of those moments where this wave of peace washes over you and you know that no matter where you are in your life, you are exactly where you’re supposed to be? It is when the thoughts of your brain surrender to the emotions of your heart and together they send a giant, “AMEN!” to your nervous system which allows you to smile even when no one is looking. I have had a handful of these moments in my life, but they have been coming more frequently since Addisyn arrived. From another’s perspective my life is probably uneventful and simple, but to me each day has been perfectly placed so that I can enjoy the “simple” in the deepest of ways.
On Tuesday, Addisyn and I played our first game of chase. She would wiggle her way out of my arms in cute retaliation from putting on her new outfit. Once free, she would dart across the room to another corner and I would start quickly crawling after her to scoop her up in my arms and kiss all over her cheeks. We played this game for about ten minutes. As we were doing this, she would randomly stop and push back on her arms so as to prop herself in a perfectly postured sitting position. Then she would look at me and begin to clap and laugh just because I was playing with her. It was in that “simple” moment that a wave of peace crashed over me…I knew this week I had to tell her how much she has changed my life. I had to write her another love letter.
What most of you do not know is that my husband is a wonderful writer and a poet. Writing is his God given talent and he uses it as often as he can in inspirational short stories, Christian rap lyrics, and love letters. Steve began writing Addisyn love letters a few months before she was born. It was his way to gather his thoughts and feelings and try to express to her how much he already loves her. This turned into a tradition once she was born and whenever he feels led, he will pull out her journal and begin to write a love letter. This weekend he must have experienced the same feeling I did because he came downstairs after putting her to bed and asked me if I knew where her notebook was. From this, I figured that this week a love letter was in the stars for you, baby girl!
This time your dad is letting me share one of many he will write to you as you grow older.
Addy,
Today was as if you were cut from a cloud my little piece of heaven. It’s impossible not to smile around you. Ask anyone who knows you; the mood changes when you’re in the room. You’re cheerful, curious, smart, funny, loving, beautiful, and in a different moment every day you find a new way to enrich my life. I always think back to the thoughts that used to roll through my mind after I found out your mother was pregnant. I used to think of all the things I’d be teaching you in the future like how to walk, ride a bike, or drive a car. Never once did I consider what I’d be learning from you now.
You’ve taught me more about joy, love, and peace in these last nine months than in all of the years of my life combined. I still find it amazing how I smile every time I reach down to pick you up, but my heart overflows with joy in the times you reach up to me. I’ve found a new love. Not new in the sense that I got rid of something old, but new because it is something I had never known. I love your mom dearly and put only God above her, but our love for you is something so special. You bring a life to our love that makes it as if we’d always missed you even though we never knew you, we’re stronger because you’re here, and we can’t imagine a life without you…you make us a family. You bring me peace. In fact, if I could define peace it would be holding you against my chest as you drift away to sleep. Yet, nothing can define the peace I feel when I walk through the door after a hard day at work, see you in your mother’s arms, and know that I am home…you’d have to be me to know it. My life has changed for the better in every way because of you.
Love you forever,
Dad
Halloween 2010- Our little lobster
Let the molting begin….
Here are a few sneak peeks from my last photo shoot for the business Geese Police.
With Love,
Stacy
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