Would you believe that I am writing this blog while cleaning my fridge? If cleaning fingerprints off your stainless steel appliances doesn’t get you all inspired and fired up to write, well, then, I’m not sure we can be friends. ;-)I’m doing this because, just recently, after four years and some odd months of being a mommy, I have determined that my biggest stress is the “art of balance.” My “I rock as a mom” days are sporadically sprinkled amongst the “my business is kicking butt” days, but rarely- if ever- do they fall on the same day. In fact, it is usually that my superhero mom days are only because I have let the business go for one day or my business is chugging along because I have locked myself in the office all day. I figure this is a problem that most moms, working and SAHMS, have – The Art of Balance. I’m sure there is a perfect formula out there, but in my mind it’s locked away in Pandora’s box along with the secret to relieving mommy guilt. I used to believe that some moms just have the “it” factor. But now I believe that while some moms kick butt at homemade meals and a clean house, they lack good quality time with their kids or their husband. Or if quality time is the priority, then maybe their laundry is piled high and there are dishes in the sink. Or maybe there are moms out there who don’t do either, or do both, but something else is missing. I don’t know, but I do know me. I am that momma whose house is really clean three days a week and runs a productive business four days a week and randomly drops a handful of daily tasks to just be with the kids. It’s never the same day each week and I am either seriously craving some quality time with my littles or wanting some quiet hours of work. I’m constantly riding the “Ebb and Flow” rollercoaster on the mountain of Mommyhood and maybe that is my way to balance. It may not look pretty, but in this stage of my life, it is all I have.
The past two weeks I have been feeling super nostalgic remembering my babies as they were little and seeing how big they are now and just really trying to be a present momma because this time really goes so fast. I’ve been trying to let my work go and the distractions fade away at least two days a week so I can soak in all the moments of who my babies are. I’ve come to realize if balance is actually an art when it comes to Motherhood, it looks different for everyone. It may look like tipping the scales heavily on the cleaning side one day and back on the work side the other day. For me, it’s shutting down my business on the days I crave my kids and just really enjoying the small moments with them. So, today, I’m enjoying them. And, while the house is a hot mess and my work is on hold until bedtime, the scale is leaning heavily on the mommying side and it feels so good.
Loving these moments…
Getting surprise letters from Grandma and Grandpa
Watching them laugh and copy each other
Kellan saying “Sawdy” and hug his sister.
Collecting leaves for our nature box.
Watching this little nugget on big sisters scooter.
Playing with chalk on the driveway.
Seeing her happily playing on her $5 consignment scooter she bought with her own money.
Playing pretend gas station – a nice break from Pretend Big Sister Little Sister. 
Being home with the kids…
XO!
Stacy
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